something has to give............ 4:30am

Hi all, did not get much sleep yesterday as I have had major problems sleeping for long periods, so is not too much fun.... While I was awake in the day, I logged on to mansion and played a few sngs, which within 45 minutes, I had been 1/2/3/ outed out of 80% of them.... zzzzzzz I was still in a 10$ f/o 3 k gtd, of which I ft, and managed to come a disappointing 6Th!. I was getting tired, and the game seemed to be going on forever, so no bad beats here, I blame myself, I tried to win it too quick and ultimately it cost me the 1st/2ND :-(

So I head off to sleep for a few hrs, and awake at 10pm, which Im not happy about as I wanted to sleep for a good 14 hrs...... So I switch on the computer and play a couple of comps on stars, and a couple on mansion.............

I played 2 comps on stars, and went out both fairly earlier,,,, I had A3 in SB limped from sb, 4 ppl in the pot, the flop comes - A310, check check, bet of 100, a call and i make it 700 to play, one caller, and the turn is a Q. I shove my bowl of rice in the middle and he calls with KJ, GG, WP.
within 10 seconds in the other one, I raise with 10 10, 2 callers, the flop comes 9, 2, 2, I bet one guy calls, the turn is a 2, I bet again, he sets me in...... I end up calling, and he flips 99, GG, WP.

The mansion ones I went out also, so no profit there today......

I play a bit of cash on stars, and get it in with JJ on a 456 board vs 99, it was nice to hold :-)

So I decide to play the 100k on stars, I sit down and thinks don't go to well when I flop top pair and lose about 600 to a set of 8's check calling all the way, (KJ cc)......

I grind it bck to a respectable 4k at the 1st break, and things get better after that, when I raise on button with 107 hearts, the flop comes 10 10 5, b leads out , I flat, the turn is an 8, and I move in he calls with A8....... then I have AK vs QQ and I flop the ace, and hold with 88 vs AQ and AK,,,, lovely.....

Then for some reason it all starts to go pear shaped, about 150 left, 81 get paid, I'm raising and getting back raised a lot, so I just try to steady the ship but cant seem to do it very well, I bleed off around 8k, and am highly frustrated at this point,,,, basically the long and short of it was I tilted off the rest, like a complete and utter donkey kong, all because I seem to lose all the mentality when going near the bubble/end of a comp,,, I am literally screwing at myself, really really irritated , I am going to be working on my game over the next few weeks, and start going back to basics, and really hammering home some discipline when it gets to these stages of mtts.

I definately need to change things in my game, 100%, because otherwise I am just going to give up for good as there is no point making ill timed mistakes over and over.

Rant over, and a strong lesson learned, take care, ppl, have a nice weekend, whatever you decide to do, and thanks for reading :-)

gl


Dreeniee82