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Hi guys, hope your all OK, and been winning lots!

I played the 100 f/o at the Gutshot on Tuesday night, a whopping 160 runners made it a great prize pool with 5k going for 1st and a great atmosphere all round. Unfortunately, I did not last long, I was in the wrong frame of mind to play and did not play well at all. I slow played 2 big pairs and got what I deserved, the 2nd one, literally donated him my chips.

So on Wednesday I played online, and was in 2 comps near the end of the night, and just super spewed out of them like a total donk - doh! Was not best happy, this is something I have tried to curb for a while and thought it was working up until then zzzz

Thursday I put in a lot of volume online, I had the Vegas Team Challenge to look forward to, on Ladbrokes. There was like 600 runners for it, which made it tough as so many loose juices, but managed to bag a decent line up for it, my team consists of Sunny & Chaz Chatta, Karl Marenholz and Myself, I reckon we could have a good chance to get that Vegas package (one time let the dream come true!). I had my stack up to like 20k, then get dealt AK spades, UTG limps for 500, I make it 2500 UTG +3 - all folds to him, he calls, Flop : 6,5,Q - 2 spades, he just shoves his 10k stack in, I call and he flips K6 dd - the turn and river brick, then I get it all in with him with QJ hearts vs his K9 off, it comes KQX turn and river brick and I left around 250Th or something boooooo !

I then carried on my normal comps, and could not get any finals, min cashing in a couple, overall pretty bad night.

I asked my friend to put me in the £220 f/o @ Equal Chance, a 15k starting stack with 20 Min's blinds, and 10k gtd to the winner, I fancied my chances in this one. I got there a couple of hours early! and had something to eat, which was lovely, then got ready to play, 115 runners gave it a great atmosphere and I was really looking forward to it. The poker gods had something else in mind for me tho, I could not hit a single flop, and when I did hit top pair or something, the guys behind always had stronger zzz - Finally I get AK dd, make it a 450 raise with blinds @ 100/200 the guy in sb who has lost a pot ships his 4500 stack in the middle, I call, he has Q7dd - It was looking so lovely till the 7 smacked the river marvelous! - I was in BB next hand with 2500 behind, a girl raises, someone flats, I stick it in with A3 dd, they both call, and the flop comes J105 2 Diamonds, I fancy my chances at this point, but no the poker gods said NO, and the turn and river bricked and I was out the door, sigh.

Earlier on in the day, I had been to the citizens advice to enquire about finding a solicitor to represent us with my late Father's estate. They gave me a number of an Italian Solicitor's in London, which I phoned, and spoke for a while. I explained the situation and asked them to help me get an affidavit from my mum ( a solicitor has to be present) as he is not on our birth certificate, so everything is proving difficult. Also I asked if he could help me find out the exact addresses of where my father was laid to rest in Italy, as I would like to go and see him next month, and get some closure on this. The initial appointment is going to cost around £150 and then we can take it from there, this should be sometime next week, so I am hopeful about this.

After leaving the Citizen advice I was very emotional, and rang my mum and started balling my eyes out in the middle of Woking, I have found it really hard over the past year to accept that people would go this low over money, to not inform you of when and where he died etc, I never went to his funeral, and no he never financially supported us, however, he always wanted what was best for me, the last time I saw him in the hospital, he was crying my name and holding onto my hand, and he is and always will be my Dad. I really miss him at the moment, and no matter what I say or do, nothing is ever going to bring him back, I regret so many things about my life, and just wish that things had of been so different.
Part of the reason I think I am care free with money is watching him getting older, he never spent a penny, and he died lonely, so a lot of the time, I sit and think, what is the point?

My main problem is that I get very lonely at times, It's like something missing from my life, that I am craving for, I just hope I can find it soon....

Nick from the Big slick has offered to put me in the tournament there tomorrow night, this is a £50 f/o with a £2500 gtd, 20k chips and a 30 minute clock, looks to be a good one, he even said he would put some money behind the bar for a baguette and a vodka, cheers Nick :-)

OK well I'm off, hopefully I win something decent over the weekend, I have had a bad week, online and live and it would be nice to get a good score, specially on a Sunday.

Take care, enjoy the Sunshine !

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