end of the road..... I kinda did it my way.....

Hey, hope everyone is cool...... Really did not think I would be writing this but I'm afraid to say the time has come to write it.

I will be seeking a new profession - I have had some real good results, I have played in some nice tourneys, and played in some decent cash games, with some real decent players, unfortunately , I could never quite cut the mustard, It is a shame, but its reality.

I absolutely love poker, and since playing I have always wanted to improve my game and become the best of the best, but there is one major problem....... Which Is, I am like the absolute worst when it comes to money management of any kind.. :-(

I have won some nice comps, I have played well at times, other times not so well, but as soon as I win, I want to sit in the biggest game possible and play, I have played in the 5/10, the 10/20, the 25/50, I have experienced the amazing buzz of it, the adrenalin pumping through your blood vessels, and I'm being highly honest to announce it to whoever bothers to read this, maybe I'm too honest for my own good, but I feel honesty is the best way forward....

I just love the gamble too much, I love cards, I have made some huge mistakes since winning the money I did, some crucial errors, ones that I will never be able to put back, I have had many highs, but so many more lows too, its not pretty, its soul destroying to be honest.

Maybe I would still be in the same boat, if I had had better discipline skills, maybe not, who knows, maybe I am just not good enough, who knows, the truth is, I don't deserve to be playing poker, if I just abuse the rules time and time again.

I have huge regrets in my life, I have been through some real shitty times and always fought through them, but this has to be the most painfullest thing I have ever had to do, and I will regret it for the rest of my life.

It is going to be really hard, in whatever I do from now on, as it has been a long time since I worked a "normal" job, but I will get on with it, plough through it and hopefully meet some nice people, maybe even get a boyfriend (one time, lol), and hopefully have a family etc , it might actually suit me better who knows what the future holds.

But for now, I bid you all farewell, I wish you all the luck in the world, go follow your dreams, follow your heart, and hopefully achieve your goals, I really hope you all can make it.

A guy I knew well, once told me this piece of advice and I want to share it with you - "Poker is like climbing a mountain, small steps, each time, and you can get there, You have to want to win more than anything in the world"

This is so true, and I really hope that you can all achieve it, for now, thanks for reading, and good luck

Dreeniee82